Sun Mar 23, 2008 2:43 am by crazy david
I think Straycat's suggestion may sound 'flp' but I don't think he meant it to be! and there is likely truth to it, for sure. That's what vacations are for. I have not had one for decades, btw.
Viking, I hope you don't get caught up in the idea that being creative makes you a depressed person. Writers dramatize artist's lives, and like to "paint" us as if different, but there are lots and lots off pretty happy artists. Painting etc. is not the culprit, nor is the desire to be doing it, as far as I'm concerned.
I used to be depressed for years on end. It is not something I like to think of, remember or talk about. But I was stuck in ideas that I didn't realize had no foundation. They were mental pictures and philosophies I had adopted when I was forlorn, and they grew and I let them be my gods! my laws! and I saw it as a weekness to let go of certain themes, because I thought it made me weak. It is not a problem now, because I am weak, and so are the rest of us. We all break if bent too hard. We all "die" and go to ?? We all have some unanswered questions. We are all friends, who don't know it yet!
I had doses of false religion in my past and I thought to let that go of that was wrong and endangered my 'spirituality'. I thought "God" punished people that weren't perfect, and I did not qualify no matter how hard I tried. I even thought pleasure was "sinful". I guess the point is, we are good beings, and if we don't think so, how do we justify our "not good enough" notions of ourselves?
I think people need reassurance, and peace. I do. We need these things because we are not insignificant, we matter and we are to be loved, as much as we are to love. We can be givers but we are not slaves or pawns. We have rights, and they do not come from governments but from Life Itself, from birth, or conception and beyond.
I don't know what 's really getting you down, sometimes, Jay. It may really be that you work so much and so hard. You make think you must do this. I don't know. Or maybe you've left people that you miss. Or, well, who knows.
My life has improved immensely ( I had been hospitalized a few times, before) since I talk to "God as I understand He/She/It" to Be. It is not remote, and I am part of It. We all are. It is Life. I have lots of very good reasons to say that 'God is good', even though this world can be a regular pain! I am not alone, and I insist on the right to say it. If I think I am alone, I will feel alone. But I am never alone, even when I insist that I am!
I will pray for you tonight.